single room

today, weekends starts..
i'm staying in my new hostel, which is a single room.
this is my first week living in an enclosed room alone, don't really enjoy it, and don't really like it..

No need to go to hospital today, still wake up at 7.30 in the morning though,
switched on laptop, online..
brushing, washing, grooming..
prepared Milo with biscuits, continued my drama series while breakfast..
Boiled a pot of water.. Did laundry..
Continued my assigment- Partogram..
Cleaned the room, swept the floor..
Decided to cook something, brought the rice cooker down from the top of cupboard.. unwrapped it..
walked in and out to prepare materials, don't really convenient to cook in this small room, where the water supply is located outside..
after lunch, studied and online alternately..
Handphone rang, wished the call is from someone who can talk to..
It was just a call about works eventually..Disappointed
Decided to go to the ward, changed and walked to the hospital..
Noticed my patient has been discharged, reviewed her records and found that she delivered a baby boy, smiled..
Back to the room again, took a shower..had dinner..
Studied and online again..

the room is deadly silence if without the songs playing from my laptop..
Is thinking whether anyone will notice if i disappeared,
In doubt..
Just don't like to feel alone..

People said that adaptibility to loneliness is among the assessment of maturity.. do u agree?