执子之手

“死生契阔 , 与子成说 。执子之手，与子偕老。”

很喜欢这句诗，很美的意境。
淡淡的爱情， 没有太多的轰轰烈烈惊天动地， 有的是像流水一样绵延不断的感觉。

上网查了白话文的翻译：

“生生死死离离合合，
（无论如何）我与你说过。
与你的双手交相执握，
伴着你一起垂垂老去。”

"Death or live, separated and far apart,
With you i promise,
I'll be holding your hands,
Together until we grow old.."

Life is so Beautiful~

I love to live in this world..

I love to breath and know that I'm living..

I love to smile to cute people,
and I love to laugh at funny scene.. :)

I love to walk on the street,
and enjoy the fresh breeze kissing my face..

I love listening to soft music,
and dance happily with it..

I love drinking plain water,
it is so sweet and pure than any other drinks..

I love butterfly,
flying around me with colourful wings in the park..

I love flowers,
blooming on the ground and give me a great smile..

I love the rain..
dropping on my umbrella and sings a song for me..

I love everything in the world~~

Life is so so so beautiful, that's why I can't think of any reason for not feeling happy to live in this beautiful world.. and I can't think of any reason for not smiling to you all the time~ ^^

waiting = helpless

Today.. i realised that waiting means helpless..

I was waiting on the corridor in front of Medical Ward 6H, from 8.50am.. holding my blood sample in a plain tube, waiting for the worker from Gribbles came to collect it.

That was for the blood test- Anti CCP, to investigate whether i'm sero-negative Rheumatoid Arthritis. The test was expensive and not available in government hospital, even in PPUKM. the blood test is a must for me, and doctor just leave this instruction without any subsequent help.

Well, i understand. Everyone is busy, no one will help you unless you help yourself. I called up Gribbles Pathology Lab and arranged the appointment, I asked my colleague's help to take blood from me, and i waited for the worker came to collect it..

Standing in front of the ward, I was not feeling comfortable, being in a ward which i don't seem to be welcomed. Students and doctors passed by me, asking why am I here, was speechless and didn't know how to give an answer... the story seems to be so so so long..

Patients were looking at me too.. how come a girl with white coat standing there without doing anything like others do? She isn't look like a patient, with this age..

It was 1.30p.m., I called up Gribbles to confirm the appointment again .. they told me is on the way... The patient's family invited me to sit on a bench together.. she told me she is waiting for her mother who went for hemodialysis.. I tried to smile and hide my embarrassment.

I don't know what else I can do other than sitting and keep waiting.. My handphone battery was empty and I was hungry.. But I know that I can do nothing but keep waiting.. There is a strong feeling inside me and causing me feel like crying.. I hate this feeling and I know that it is known as 'helpless'..

Sometimes i really wish that I have only single identity in this hospital, either medical student or patient.. I hate to be both, and yet overlapping..and I hate to be helpless.. hate waiting without knowing the time limit..

medicine..medicine..and medicine..

Sometimes i really curious, why am I need to take so many medicine..

it's not a very comfortable feeling, even when u take medicine for only a week or a month.. but for me is no due date, just have to take it everyday..though they are tasteless. Tell u what, i feel like eating chalk with variable sizes and colours every morning.

and whenever i have to go for a trip, the most stressful thing is i have to check and recheck whether i bring enough medicine, counting the different 'chalks', and how many tablets.. I have to adjust the alarm to remind me to take medicine in case i was too excited and forget about it..I have to keep the very precious medicine in somewhere safe, or just carry it along no matter where i go..to prevent any lost..

Well, no matter how much i dislike it, I can't afford to omit it..therefore I decided to keep it in somewhere cute, in order to make it more attractive..

here come the piggy..