Miss

Time flies.. it's again the end of a week..

Early morning, i opened my eyes, here came the same thought: " how good if i'm at home now!" There isn't any place else can be more wonderful than that. Tell u a secret, I'm seriously missing my home.. and my lovely family.. ^^

That's always a secret in my heart, because I never tell anyone how much i eager to go home.
Don't know why, just don't used to admit it.. i was never trained to express my feelings, and I don't know how.. to say 'I Love You'.

Once upon a time, I wished that I could fly when i grow up, fly away from this small town, far away from my family.. I used to feel bored seeing my family days after days.. routinely. I even annoyed when have to ask for their permission for every decision making.. I hate when my dad always enters my room without knocking the door, I hate when my mum always scolds me for not eating, I hate when my brothers always beep on my diary and handphone..

And now, after years of independent life far away from this small town, I started to realise that the things i hate most are the things i miss most..
I miss that my dad always broke in my room when I was studying alone at night, surprised me so that i can refresh my mind..
I miss that my mum always scolded me for not eating, but then will prepare my most favourite food and failed my plan of keeping fit..
I miss my brothers when they always hide my handphone and read my messages, but finally I'll catch them and we laughed together at the funny messages..
I miss the friday evening, when we all go out for a dinner, telling jokes in the car, mum always intructs dad which road to follow, then dad blames that he is the actual driver, brothers and I will fight for which restaurants to go..
I miss that they always know when i want to go shopping, and accompany me eventhough there are television program to follow, eventhough dad always feels tired on walking, anyway still sit on the bench in front and wait..
I miss that mum always brought me to the morning market, eventhough she had nothing to buy, just because i woke up too early and feeling bored..
I miss that dad always spent half an hour driving to my favourite rojak stall, and trying hard to remember my favour of fruits..
I miss that my brother will try his best to repair my laptop when i ruined it, eventhough he kept scolding me for why not repairing it myself..

Hmm.. I guess that's the reason why i miss Alor Star so much.. because i have a very lovely family.. :) So now, I will never wish to fly anymore, I wish that I could stay with the one I love forever and ever.. eventhough in this small town.. I willing to let go of glory and authority.. just to stay with my beloved family.. ^^