Pain

Here come another painful evening..

I thought i have already get use to the pain, but I was wrong, the pain is still pricking no matter how many times i encounter it..

No one can resist pain, as long as your brain is functional..



Reluctant to take anymore pain-killer, can't even calculate how many tablets i have taken up to date.. convince myself that I can handle the pain without any medication, though never success..

Can't escape the daily medication, for regulation of my immune system..
Warning from doctor, never skip once.. I obey it, without asking the consequence ..

Secret from my heart, inevitably afraid of the side effects, addiction, resistancy, tolerancy..



Received a call from my doctor, adviced that pain is associated with stress..

Keep wondering, am I in stress now? Don't really think so.. But how come the pain reccurs after quite some time of indolence?
There should be something stressing me, slowly and silently..

Doctor said relationship is not encouraged, unless it is a stable one. I said nope, it's nothing to do with relationship, if there is, then it will be the stress for being alone and abandoned..

Sincerely wish that the pain would be relieved after a thorough sleep..

Good Night and Sweet Dream..